11: Rest in Pieces

I suddenly don't want to go to school. I just don't think I can handle seeing him after this long. He doesn't know how much I love him, and he probably never will. He's too focused on the worst girl ever, and he won't even see me. It's like I don't even exist, he hasn't spoken to me all summer, he's only left brief comments on Facebook, and to me, it's nothing. I want to just be his friend, but this tug in my heart won't let me. How can I go to school and see him? I don't want to risk breaking down and crying, but I have to go. Why does it have to be so difficult?