I'm done. I obviously don't mean anything to him, once Melody comes back to school, he ignores me. I feel like I didn't do anything to him, not one thing. They're dating again, and he hasn't said a single thing to me since she came back. I was hoping that she'd stay away, with Anthony, but I guess she thinks she can just be friends with him and have Jonah. I think she thinks I'm okay with her, she can go ahead and think that, but it's very much the opposite, I want her dead. She's just going to hurt Jonah, and all I can do is watch, because he probably won't even come close to listening to me anymore.
I made him a bracelet last night, but now I don't think I'll give it to him, he probably wouldn't wear it anyway..
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Sunday, October 4, 2009
17: So Obvious
He has crazy beautiful eyes, I could stare into them forever~
I really think I'm falling for him, scratch that, I know I'm falling for him. He probably knows it too, and I know that he doesn't feel that way about me. There's a long line of girls waiting to be with him, and I'm most likely last in that line. My only question is why he said yes to my invitation to Homecoming when there were plenty of others. Was it a pity date? Or am I actually first in line? I really have no idea, but all that really matters is that he said yes, and I had a blast with him last night. We only danced once, but I'm sure I'll never forget it, his hands on my waist, my arms around his neck, his beautiful eyes staring into mine, it was perfect. I wish he would've kissed me, but I think that'd be asking for too much. I got to go to Homecoming with him, isn't that enough?
I might be too greedy for my own good.
I really think I'm falling for him, scratch that, I know I'm falling for him. He probably knows it too, and I know that he doesn't feel that way about me. There's a long line of girls waiting to be with him, and I'm most likely last in that line. My only question is why he said yes to my invitation to Homecoming when there were plenty of others. Was it a pity date? Or am I actually first in line? I really have no idea, but all that really matters is that he said yes, and I had a blast with him last night. We only danced once, but I'm sure I'll never forget it, his hands on my waist, my arms around his neck, his beautiful eyes staring into mine, it was perfect. I wish he would've kissed me, but I think that'd be asking for too much. I got to go to Homecoming with him, isn't that enough?
I might be too greedy for my own good.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
16: Bleh
Well, Melody apparently never broke up with him, he still loves her, and I'm a broken-hearted little girl. I asked him, he knows that I like him, and he doesn't care. He says that I'm an amazing girl and I have the best personality, but he doesn't feel that way about me. <- Exactly what all the other boys say, and not what I really wanted to hear. Az and Jessie's theory is the only reason he doesn't like me like that is because he's dating Melody, but is that the truth? I'd like to believe so, but all the other guys who've said that weren't dating anyone, so they definately didn't want to date me. Am I that undatable? Sure, I'm weird, I get emotional and overthink things, but I feel like I'm undesirable...
I'm going to homecoming anyway though. I have no idea why, there's so many reasons why I don't want to, and not really a particular reason that I do. Am I weird?
I'm going to homecoming anyway though. I have no idea why, there's so many reasons why I don't want to, and not really a particular reason that I do. Am I weird?
Sunday, September 27, 2009
15: J'aimerais Tellement ~ Jena Lee
It's been a while, and a helluva lot has happened since my last entry.
Long story short, Jonah finally saw Melody for the bitch that she was and avoided her. I got excited and hoped he would talk to me more. Next day, he's dating her, apparently not caring that he was her second choice. I was broken-hearted. Now a couple days ago, Melody breaks up with him because he tried getting Anthony is trouble(I really don't know what happened there), and now he's single again, probably broken-hearted over Melody. I want to give him time, but Homecoming is this coming weekend, and I would really like to ask him to go with me. I don't want to push myself on him, but Jenna wants me to go, and I want to have another reason for me to get in a dress and go. I'm going to try later, on Facebook, when he's online. I feel bad for asking so soon after, but it's homecoming, and I know that he wants to go. Hopefully he hasn't accepted any of the other invites...
Long story short, Jonah finally saw Melody for the bitch that she was and avoided her. I got excited and hoped he would talk to me more. Next day, he's dating her, apparently not caring that he was her second choice. I was broken-hearted. Now a couple days ago, Melody breaks up with him because he tried getting Anthony is trouble(I really don't know what happened there), and now he's single again, probably broken-hearted over Melody. I want to give him time, but Homecoming is this coming weekend, and I would really like to ask him to go with me. I don't want to push myself on him, but Jenna wants me to go, and I want to have another reason for me to get in a dress and go. I'm going to try later, on Facebook, when he's online. I feel bad for asking so soon after, but it's homecoming, and I know that he wants to go. Hopefully he hasn't accepted any of the other invites...
Thursday, September 17, 2009
14: Ghoulstock
Okay, so..Melody hasn't actually been to class all week, she's been claiming that she's sick, but I don't buy that crap. Does she think that everyone is stupid? She's always on facebook, always updating, saying that she's hanging out with Anthony, I think we all know what's going on there. Jonah is still saying how much he misses her, and that he's sorry for every time he's doubted her. But it hurts, I know what's going on, she's been fighting to keep Anthony all summer, and now that Jenna broke up with him, he's free, why would she give up now? I wish I could tell him, but I just don't have the guts to, what if he doesn't believe me? What if he won't stop believing all the crap Melody's feeding him? I just don't want to see him getting hurt by all this, but I'm afraid that there's nothing I can do.
On a better note, Jonah invited me to a show his band is playing at, it's a Halloween Costume Party. It sounds totally wicked, I'd gladly go, but it means canceling my plans with the people I used to call my friends. They haven't spoken to me for a long time, so why should I even go? I've always wanted to hear Jonah play on something other than the art room acoustic, why pass it up? Is it just me, or is there something behind the invitation?
On a better note, Jonah invited me to a show his band is playing at, it's a Halloween Costume Party. It sounds totally wicked, I'd gladly go, but it means canceling my plans with the people I used to call my friends. They haven't spoken to me for a long time, so why should I even go? I've always wanted to hear Jonah play on something other than the art room acoustic, why pass it up? Is it just me, or is there something behind the invitation?
Saturday, September 12, 2009
13: Weekend!
The first week of school is over, I was so happy to be able to sleep in this morning, and I have one more morning to sleep in. Yay~
Jessie and I bought a new flat iron last night, and now I can finally straighten my hair without having to wait over an hour for the dang thing to heat up. My hair looks fabulous too, the new one works so much better than that piece of crap I used to use.
I should probably be doing my homework right now, so that I won't be rushing to do it tomorrow, but I'm too lazy to do it. I know, it's bad, and my parents keep telling me procrastination is not the way, but I can't help it! It's who I am! (which by the way I have to write a paper about xD) I might do my reading tonight, and my paper tomorrow, it shouldn't take me too long.
Well, on my second day to school, I found out that Jonah sits in the art room at lunch, which coincidentally, is where I decided to eat. But to my deep despair, Melody is there with him. Yesterday, I viewed the most horrific thing. He was playing the art teacher's guitar, and was singing to her. It nearly broke my heart, the only thing that gives me hope is the fact that he's still listed as single on Facebook. I hope he realizes her little scheme soon, or he just might end up being broken.
Jessie and I bought a new flat iron last night, and now I can finally straighten my hair without having to wait over an hour for the dang thing to heat up. My hair looks fabulous too, the new one works so much better than that piece of crap I used to use.
I should probably be doing my homework right now, so that I won't be rushing to do it tomorrow, but I'm too lazy to do it. I know, it's bad, and my parents keep telling me procrastination is not the way, but I can't help it! It's who I am! (which by the way I have to write a paper about xD) I might do my reading tonight, and my paper tomorrow, it shouldn't take me too long.
Well, on my second day to school, I found out that Jonah sits in the art room at lunch, which coincidentally, is where I decided to eat. But to my deep despair, Melody is there with him. Yesterday, I viewed the most horrific thing. He was playing the art teacher's guitar, and was singing to her. It nearly broke my heart, the only thing that gives me hope is the fact that he's still listed as single on Facebook. I hope he realizes her little scheme soon, or he just might end up being broken.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
12: First Day
It wasn't a full day, but it was still my first day of Senior Year. I didn't have to go to classes till about noon, which meant different bus schedule, and thanks to the school system, I had no idea when it was. So, Karen gave me a ride, since she has her own car, and a school parking pass. It was awkward, but we made conversation. I didn't see Jonah today, he was around from what I heard, but I just couldn't find him. I wanted to at least say hi, and be on my way, but it kinda hurt not seeing him, even if I really didn't want to. Apparently the girl he likes, Melody, is supposed to be in two of my classes, but she didn't show up. I hope Jenna was right when she said that she's going to Germany, I don't want to see that bitch's face. She's horrible, I don't know why Jonah likes her, she's just a slut, looking for some boy toy to make Jenna's boyfriend jealous. I don't want Jonah getting hurt, he's already been hurt by his ex, I want to see him smile again. I must sound like some girl that overthinks things, and I only worry about him because I like him, but I just want him to be happy, and he's not going to be happy with Melody, she'll only hurt him. If only he knew...
My classes are alright, I'm psyched for all of them except Pre-Calc, I hate math! But I have Psychology, Contemporary Novel, Advanced Art, and Sociology. All seem totally cool, and I can't wait for tomorrow to come. The only bad thing about today was the fact that halfway through, I got a killer headache, and I didn't have any pills to supress it. I also didn't want to ask for any pills, because teachers suddenly come to conclusions, thinking it's a drug dealing. I hate dealing with all that crap, so I had to deal with a throbbing headache for two and a half hours. And after school Rose and I went to Barnes and Noble, and hung out at the cafe, her and her iced tea, me and my hot tea. We looked at Halloween magazines, and we really want to hang out some time around Halloween to make crafts, and go through a haunted maze or something, because on Halloween we have different plans. I totally miss hanging out with Rose, I can tell her all sorts of stuff, but still, not everything. I wish I had someone I can tell everything to, without being judged, or being told I'm wrong, I want someone who'll support me, no matter what I decide to do.
My classes are alright, I'm psyched for all of them except Pre-Calc, I hate math! But I have Psychology, Contemporary Novel, Advanced Art, and Sociology. All seem totally cool, and I can't wait for tomorrow to come. The only bad thing about today was the fact that halfway through, I got a killer headache, and I didn't have any pills to supress it. I also didn't want to ask for any pills, because teachers suddenly come to conclusions, thinking it's a drug dealing. I hate dealing with all that crap, so I had to deal with a throbbing headache for two and a half hours. And after school Rose and I went to Barnes and Noble, and hung out at the cafe, her and her iced tea, me and my hot tea. We looked at Halloween magazines, and we really want to hang out some time around Halloween to make crafts, and go through a haunted maze or something, because on Halloween we have different plans. I totally miss hanging out with Rose, I can tell her all sorts of stuff, but still, not everything. I wish I had someone I can tell everything to, without being judged, or being told I'm wrong, I want someone who'll support me, no matter what I decide to do.
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