4: Crap

I have a lot of shiz goin' on right now, and I don't know left from right.

So, today I went and hung out with my friend Kay, we went to Kollen Park, then to Steak and Shake, and we sat in the WalMart Parking Lot and ate our shakes, afterward we went and played with the baby toys in WalMart. I think that the workers almost threw us out xD.

Soon after I got home, I heard everything. My ex-boyfriend gave my ex-best-friend a promise ring, after dating only 1 month. I can't believe it, the person I'm freaking in love with wants to spend the rest of his life with the girl I hate the most. SHOOT ME NOW~! I can't stand the thought of them being together, it's disgusting, wrong, and it hurts, so much. There's nothing that can hurt worse...

...but something can happen to make me feel worse. My mom approached me today and said that I do nothing. She complained about everything, I didn't scrub the toilet, or the bathtub, when I did, and she just went off about the fact that I forgot to clean the counter today. Okay, so maybe I was in a rush to pick up Kay, but she didn't have to lecture me the way she did. She knows about the whole "promise-ring" crap too, doesn't she know that I'm already emotionally unstable? Why add on to my low self-esteem? It's like she wants me dead.

I do have some great friends to keep me around, like Azalea, Rose, Kay, Alexis, even my sister. No one else really seems to care...>.< Jeez, I still sound like an emo-kid! I need to get a boyfriend, maybe that'll make things a bit better.