24: Love this Season~

Merry Belated Christmas all~
Also, happy birthday to me!

I'm finally 18, free to do what I want(most of the time ^^;)
I love this season for two reasons, the merry gift giving/receiving, and I turn a year older, closer to freedom.
So I finally got a camera and a new iPod.
I decided to call my iPod Luke, and my camera is still being debated, it's either gonna be Trisha, or Rosalynne, both names I love very much.
I love Luke, he's an amazing little piece of technology, he's a touch, so I can access internet, a helluva lot of apps, and still listen to quality music.

Oh! And if you didn't notice, Jillian is up and running again, I got her back on my birthday~

23: Nope, nothin'

So yeah...

Still don't have a computer, and I lost time at home due to grades in school...

Sooooo, I can only use a computer at school, and just about everything is blocked.

I'm screwed, bigtime.

Someone save me?

22: So, I fail.

Ok, so when I finally get internet on my computer again, it gets a virus, thus making it useless to me once more.
I can't watch FMA: Brotherhood without getting yelled at, I have limited time, and I have to deal with my siblings shooting me with dart guns without darts in them, and the sounds effects they make in replacement.
They're both teeanagers now, and yet they act like 4 year olds. I swear, I wasn't anything like that at 13 and 14...

21: Been a While..

I haven't really had so much time to be here, but here I am!
I didn't have internet connection in my room for over a month, so I had to use the family's computer to do things, and since we all have to share, I didn't have as much time to do things.
But now we have Windows 7, which my dad trusts to use our wireless internet, and now I have connection in my room again.
It's kind of sad, the first thing I did when I got connection was spend the entire night watching anime online, so sorry, I could've updated last night, but didn't.
As a lot of you know, I've been through loads of shit throughout this past month, but it's done, I'm done, none of it concerns me now. I cut off the bracelet, and I don't even acknowledge him anymore.
I gauged my ears, they're size 14 right now, but I just got some money, so I think I'm going to go to the next size after I earn a little more, so that I still have some to buy Rose a Christmas present.
Gah, that holiday is coming up so fast, and so is my birthday. I'm gonna be freakin' 18! It scares the crap out of me, I need to get a job and start saving up for college...

20: Sandmann

Everything these days seems to tick me off. I have no idea what the hell is going on, but I want it to stop. I think it might be from my lack of sleep since school started, or maybe it's my parents? I don't know, maybe it's both. I'm so frustrated with everything, and the frustration turns to depression. I feel like one big emotional mess, I might as well have "EMOTIONALLY UNSTABLE" written on my forehead, and walk around school like that.
Jonah still hasn't said a single word to me, it's been exactly two weeks. How could I be so stupid? I always fall for the guy that I would never have, and I still hope for it, even though I know it wouldn't ever happen. I finally know that it's true, that humans always want what they can't have, sometimes they get it, and lose it, and most of the time, they would never get to have it. Am I rambling? I probably should stop before I get too far, but I hate the way I'm feeling right now. Maybe sleep is what I need..about 12 hours sounds good.

"Sandman, won't you come to my house? Sprinkle sand in my eyes, and don't ever wake me up again." ~ Oomph

19: Giving up

I've lost everything now.
Jonah doesn't talk to me, and neither does most of my so-called friends. Jenna, Alexis, Rose, and Mark are the only people I think care that I even exist. But even at times, they don't even come to see me, I still have to go see them. Az, what the hell is going on? You don't fucking tell me anything anymore, and it really hurts my feelings. I trust you with things, but you can't trust me with anything? Thanks a lot.
I'm done with this shit, it's all I ever get. What did I ever do to deserve this?

18: Mein kampf der liebe

I'm done. I obviously don't mean anything to him, once Melody comes back to school, he ignores me. I feel like I didn't do anything to him, not one thing. They're dating again, and he hasn't said a single thing to me since she came back. I was hoping that she'd stay away, with Anthony, but I guess she thinks she can just be friends with him and have Jonah. I think she thinks I'm okay with her, she can go ahead and think that, but it's very much the opposite, I want her dead. She's just going to hurt Jonah, and all I can do is watch, because he probably won't even come close to listening to me anymore.
I made him a bracelet last night, but now I don't think I'll give it to him, he probably wouldn't wear it anyway..

17: So Obvious

He has crazy beautiful eyes, I could stare into them forever~
I really think I'm falling for him, scratch that, I know I'm falling for him. He probably knows it too, and I know that he doesn't feel that way about me. There's a long line of girls waiting to be with him, and I'm most likely last in that line. My only question is why he said yes to my invitation to Homecoming when there were plenty of others. Was it a pity date? Or am I actually first in line? I really have no idea, but all that really matters is that he said yes, and I had a blast with him last night. We only danced once, but I'm sure I'll never forget it, his hands on my waist, my arms around his neck, his beautiful eyes staring into mine, it was perfect. I wish he would've kissed me, but I think that'd be asking for too much. I got to go to Homecoming with him, isn't that enough?
I might be too greedy for my own good.

16: Bleh

Well, Melody apparently never broke up with him, he still loves her, and I'm a broken-hearted little girl. I asked him, he knows that I like him, and he doesn't care. He says that I'm an amazing girl and I have the best personality, but he doesn't feel that way about me. <- Exactly what all the other boys say, and not what I really wanted to hear. Az and Jessie's theory is the only reason he doesn't like me like that is because he's dating Melody, but is that the truth? I'd like to believe so, but all the other guys who've said that weren't dating anyone, so they definately didn't want to date me. Am I that undatable? Sure, I'm weird, I get emotional and overthink things, but I feel like I'm undesirable...
I'm going to homecoming anyway though. I have no idea why, there's so many reasons why I don't want to, and not really a particular reason that I do. Am I weird?

15: J'aimerais Tellement ~ Jena Lee

It's been a while, and a helluva lot has happened since my last entry.
Long story short, Jonah finally saw Melody for the bitch that she was and avoided her. I got excited and hoped he would talk to me more. Next day, he's dating her, apparently not caring that he was her second choice. I was broken-hearted. Now a couple days ago, Melody breaks up with him because he tried getting Anthony is trouble(I really don't know what happened there), and now he's single again, probably broken-hearted over Melody. I want to give him time, but Homecoming is this coming weekend, and I would really like to ask him to go with me. I don't want to push myself on him, but Jenna wants me to go, and I want to have another reason for me to get in a dress and go. I'm going to try later, on Facebook, when he's online. I feel bad for asking so soon after, but it's homecoming, and I know that he wants to go. Hopefully he hasn't accepted any of the other invites...

14: Ghoulstock

Okay, so..Melody hasn't actually been to class all week, she's been claiming that she's sick, but I don't buy that crap. Does she think that everyone is stupid? She's always on facebook, always updating, saying that she's hanging out with Anthony, I think we all know what's going on there. Jonah is still saying how much he misses her, and that he's sorry for every time he's doubted her. But it hurts, I know what's going on, she's been fighting to keep Anthony all summer, and now that Jenna broke up with him, he's free, why would she give up now? I wish I could tell him, but I just don't have the guts to, what if he doesn't believe me? What if he won't stop believing all the crap Melody's feeding him? I just don't want to see him getting hurt by all this, but I'm afraid that there's nothing I can do.
On a better note, Jonah invited me to a show his band is playing at, it's a Halloween Costume Party. It sounds totally wicked, I'd gladly go, but it means canceling my plans with the people I used to call my friends. They haven't spoken to me for a long time, so why should I even go? I've always wanted to hear Jonah play on something other than the art room acoustic, why pass it up? Is it just me, or is there something behind the invitation?

13: Weekend!

The first week of school is over, I was so happy to be able to sleep in this morning, and I have one more morning to sleep in. Yay~
Jessie and I bought a new flat iron last night, and now I can finally straighten my hair without having to wait over an hour for the dang thing to heat up. My hair looks fabulous too, the new one works so much better than that piece of crap I used to use.
I should probably be doing my homework right now, so that I won't be rushing to do it tomorrow, but I'm too lazy to do it. I know, it's bad, and my parents keep telling me procrastination is not the way, but I can't help it! It's who I am! (which by the way I have to write a paper about xD) I might do my reading tonight, and my paper tomorrow, it shouldn't take me too long.
Well, on my second day to school, I found out that Jonah sits in the art room at lunch, which coincidentally, is where I decided to eat. But to my deep despair, Melody is there with him. Yesterday, I viewed the most horrific thing. He was playing the art teacher's guitar, and was singing to her. It nearly broke my heart, the only thing that gives me hope is the fact that he's still listed as single on Facebook. I hope he realizes her little scheme soon, or he just might end up being broken.

12: First Day

It wasn't a full day, but it was still my first day of Senior Year. I didn't have to go to classes till about noon, which meant different bus schedule, and thanks to the school system, I had no idea when it was. So, Karen gave me a ride, since she has her own car, and a school parking pass. It was awkward, but we made conversation. I didn't see Jonah today, he was around from what I heard, but I just couldn't find him. I wanted to at least say hi, and be on my way, but it kinda hurt not seeing him, even if I really didn't want to. Apparently the girl he likes, Melody, is supposed to be in two of my classes, but she didn't show up. I hope Jenna was right when she said that she's going to Germany, I don't want to see that bitch's face. She's horrible, I don't know why Jonah likes her, she's just a slut, looking for some boy toy to make Jenna's boyfriend jealous. I don't want Jonah getting hurt, he's already been hurt by his ex, I want to see him smile again. I must sound like some girl that overthinks things, and I only worry about him because I like him, but I just want him to be happy, and he's not going to be happy with Melody, she'll only hurt him. If only he knew...
My classes are alright, I'm psyched for all of them except Pre-Calc, I hate math! But I have Psychology, Contemporary Novel, Advanced Art, and Sociology. All seem totally cool, and I can't wait for tomorrow to come. The only bad thing about today was the fact that halfway through, I got a killer headache, and I didn't have any pills to supress it. I also didn't want to ask for any pills, because teachers suddenly come to conclusions, thinking it's a drug dealing. I hate dealing with all that crap, so I had to deal with a throbbing headache for two and a half hours. And after school Rose and I went to Barnes and Noble, and hung out at the cafe, her and her iced tea, me and my hot tea. We looked at Halloween magazines, and we really want to hang out some time around Halloween to make crafts, and go through a haunted maze or something, because on Halloween we have different plans. I totally miss hanging out with Rose, I can tell her all sorts of stuff, but still, not everything. I wish I had someone I can tell everything to, without being judged, or being told I'm wrong, I want someone who'll support me, no matter what I decide to do.

11: Rest in Pieces

I suddenly don't want to go to school. I just don't think I can handle seeing him after this long. He doesn't know how much I love him, and he probably never will. He's too focused on the worst girl ever, and he won't even see me. It's like I don't even exist, he hasn't spoken to me all summer, he's only left brief comments on Facebook, and to me, it's nothing. I want to just be his friend, but this tug in my heart won't let me. How can I go to school and see him? I don't want to risk breaking down and crying, but I have to go. Why does it have to be so difficult?

10: Stolen m&m's

School starts on Tuesday, and honestly, I can't wait.
For one, I'm bored as hell and I need something to occupy my time. I even went to a high school football game last night, and I hate football. I have to admit though, I had fun. I hung out with Jenna and Hannah, her exchange student. We sat next to the band, so we could never hear the cheerleaders(good for me), and we had popcorn, Mountain Dew, hot chocolate, and a bag of stolen m&m's(we didn't steal it, Jenna's cousin did, we just stole them from her).
Secondly, I want to see my friends again. Most of which I haven't seen since school let out, and I miss them, especially Jonah. Damn do I miss that boy...stupid crushes. It'll probably never happen, I can only dream. -sigh-
Thirdly, I have friggin' sweet classes this year, and I have at least one friend in a class every trimester, SCORE! I can't wait to meet the teachers and just have a great time with my senior year.
The only downside is college applications, and the pressure to be at school everyday, and not fail a single class. >.<

9: School's Coming

Well, I had registration yesterday for school.
I had to wake up extra early because my brother also had to register, except his was at 8 in the morning, in which I had to take him. And after I kinda chilled for a while, I took Jessie and Azalea to McDonald's and then to Goodwill for some Speed Shopping, which wasn't as fast as I'd hoped. xD Sorry guys. But while at Goodwill, we broke all the dressing room rules. #1 No more than 5 items in the dressing room. #2 Only 1 person per dressing room. and #3 No shopping carts allowed in the dressing rooms. All three of us were in the dressing room, with a shopping cart, with who knows how many articles of clothing. It was totally fun, and we didn't get busted. We got out and on the way home my mom called asking where we were, she wasn't very happy, let's just say that. I chilled at my house with Azalea while my Jessie, my mom and my brother went to my Gram's house to have their jeans hemmed. After chillin' we had to go pick up Karen so tha twe could register for our Senior year. Az just tagged along cuz she wanted to. The school didn't have AC and the line was long by the time we got there. It took a while, but we did it. We got our school IDs, our planners, Senior Party info, and our class schedules. The school really fucked up, everyone had at least 1 empty class, and a class they never asked for. So guess what, I got to go in to the school today to get my schedule changed. I sat in the counseling office for an hour and a half before I was called in, and people that signed in after I did got to go before me. Then I find out that my counselor wasn't even there, so I got this lady that I didn't even know, and she thought that I was someone else. I just wanted to go in, fix my schedule, and get out so that I could go back home.

I feel much better now than I did before, I have my Stride Gum and I'm RPing with Jessie and Azalea. FUNTIEMZ!

8: Not as Planned

Alright, remember Thursday how I was supposed to go to the Aquatic Center with my friends? Didn't happen, one couldn't make it, so we moved it to Friday, right? Turns out, I wake up Friday morning with major cramps, a headache, and I couldn't eat anything without feeling sick. I just wasn't in the mood to go swimming, so when Jenna called, I told her I couldn't go, and as far as I know, they still went. >.< Sometimes I wonder if I'm the least loved person in that group of friends...like they said they'd help pay for me to go to Ikau? They didn't, Lene bitched when I told her I didn't have money for her to pick up food for me (sorry, done with Ikasu talk now). Maybe it's just me reading too far into things. They probably didn't want to move it to some other day. But I haven't seen Alexis since school let out, and I haven't seen Jenna since before she left for Taiwan(except through a car window, but that doesn't really count), and I probably won't see them until school starts, and that would be wierd, because Jenna probably isn't used to me being away from everybody(you know, the split that happened halfway through last year). You know, the funny thing is that she left with Trent and I happy as can be, and she comes back with me pissed off at him, and him happy with Karen(the bitch I used to call my best friend).

Okay, and today was my family get-together, that was supposed to be at Kollen Park. But guess what? Rain happened, and we got stuck with my mom's entire side of the family coming over to our small house. Try cramping a growing family into my house, it's crazy. My two aunts, one uncle, seven cousins, cousin's boyfriend, two of my cousin's kids, my grandparents, my parents, and my brother, sister and I, all packed into our small kitchen, living room and garage. F-U-N! Funny thing is that my family prepared mostly mexican food, and we're definately not mexican. Guacomole, salsa, tortilla chips, spicy cheese sauce, etc. Luckily, my dad grilled burgers and hotdogs(in the dry garage of course, after taking the grill to the front), so we weren't living off snack food. And surprisingly, it was alright, great food, fun conversations, and no family feud.

So, now all I have left is my last session for my senior pictures tomorrow, hopefully it doesn't rain, because I'll already be getting wet, we're planning on taking fountain shots, and they want me to get in there -.-; Oh well, what can I do? I have to look cool, right?

I need to clean my room and get rid of the clothes I don't wear, I think I'll do that tomorrow, while the rest of my family is off doing stuff..

7: Lazy Days

I apologize for the long wait for a new post, I've just been sooperdooper lazy since I got back from Ikasucon. A lot of things have happened and I just didn't want to get on the computer and type about it. But now, I shall.

So, let's begin. This year for Ikasucon we took an old RV down for the trip, it wasn't the most pleasant ride, but it was much more comfortable than a cramped car. We played Apples to Apples, and started to make an Anime version of it. It was going fine, until we reached Shipshewana, Indiana. Once we reached Highway 5 in the right turn lane, the RV broke down. We were stuck smack dab in the middle of Amish Country, horse carriages and bicycles everywhere. So, us being in the RV, we were a freakshow. Luckily, we had cellphones(though there were some signal problems), we were able to get ahold of a nearby towing company, and got the RV towed to the nearby town, but we were still stuck in Shipshewana. So we hung out at a BP gas station for 4 hours to wait for a ride from friends(who had to come all the way from home to get us).
By the time we got to the hotel it was after 11 pm, and I was exausted, because I woke up at 6 that morning, and I do not handle heat very well. But my fellow convention goers weren't, so they watched a movie, which I didn't mind really, but after the movie, they wouldn't shut up, so I couldn't sleep. I wake up around 9 the next morning, grumpy, hungry, and dirty feeling, and everyone else is all, "Hurry, we need to register!" I was not in the mood, but I took a quick shower, did my makeup, and tired to do my hair before getting down to the convention center. When we got in line it was around 10:30, it was already long, and not moving. We waited for about 3 hours in that line, and about halfway through, I was starving, so we sent our friends that had pre-regged to get us some food. Yay McDonald's.
~ Overall, the Convention was alright, not the best, but it could've been much worse. I got myself some awesome stuff of awesomeness(magazine, poster, keychain, figurines, action figure, etc.) But after the convention, as you can tell, I've been tired and lazy, I haven't done much at all.

Just a couple days ago I had my first session for my Senior Pictures, it was fun, but slightly annoying, too many difficult and uncomfortable poses, and the constant smiling hurt my face. Sadly, we only got through two outfits and two locations, so we need to have one more session on Sunday, only one more location from what I understand, so maybe I don't need all 4 outfits. Who knows..

Going out with some friends today. Alexis invited me to the Aquatic Center with her, Jenna, Jackson, Peter, and Sky. Hopefully it'll be fun, I haven't hung out with combination of people before without others, and Jenna's been in Taiwan for the last year, and I haven't seen her since she got back, so, it might be alright.

I also have a family get-together on Saturday for my mom's side, I think it'll be quite interesting, since most of us don't get along, but with a new marriage in the family, maybe thing will go smoothly? Bah.

I didn't get any sleep last night for some reason. I went to bed at 11:30, and I woke up to go pee at 3, and I could not get back to sleep. I've been awake for almost 6 hours, and I'm running out of things to do, I just went on an application I haven't used for ages on Facebook, and I really need a real breakfast...maybe some waffles...>.> I think I might also update some things on this blog.

I think I'm actually out of things to talk about...if I missed anything lemme know.

6: Ikasucon

I'm getting ready to leave tomorrow. I just can't wait, I've been looking forward to this since I found out I could go, and the excitement is eating me alive! I thought for sure the next time I would be going would be next year, but thanks to my dad, it's tomorrow! Ok, so the actual convention doesn't start until Friday, but we'll be there tomorrow because my chaperone has a stand this year, and needs to be there early. My dad also bought me snacks for the ride ;-; I love him so much, I'm so glad he remembered that I love Pringles and Slim Jims(even though he bought me the off-brand)! At least he knows what I like, if my mom bought me something, it would probably be barbecue chips and something with rootbeer flavors, yuck >P.

Also hung with Azalea for an hour or so today, to talk about stuffs, and see if I can fit my big butt in her pants. Didn't work, but I did get a belt out of her.
By the way Az, you reading Full Tilt reminded me, I want to name my first son Wesley(I hope you like him better later, cuz I lurv him). And thanks, you got me listening to Sorry Sorry again, and now I have it on repeat. We should totally learn the dance, just to be weird.

Bucking Bronco Dino...I think I can handle that ride. ;D

5: Gram's

I went to my Gram's house today, just like I always do every couple weeks. I enjoy the food very much, but I have a lack of things to do. It's not like it was when I was a little kid, back then, I had toys to play with and older cousins to look up to. Now I just sit around and listen to my aunts, uncles, and older cousins talk. It's quite boring really, and I feel bad for not being the older cousin to my cousin's kids like how my cousins were for me, but I just can't do it. Being the child of the youngest child doesn't give much more family to look forward to.

So, while sitting around in my boredom, I started thinking about things. I realized that I shouldn't care who my ex dates at all, it's none of my business, and I'm only making myself look like a psychopath. Obviously he didn't care about me enough if he let me go that easily. He probably lied every time he told me that he loved me. I must not have been special enough to him at all, so why should I bother trying to plot his demise? Sure, I was jealous when I found out he's dating my ex-best friend, because I hate her, but I realized that hating both of them and trying to make them fail as a couple is a total waste of my time. Besides, if I keep wallowing in my misery and jealousy, no one would want to date me. So, I'm giving up in my evil plot to destroy them both, and accept that they're a couple and that they "love" eachother, even if I don't approve of it, because obviously, my opinion doesn't matter. (Plus, those fuckers deserve eachother.)

So now, I'm going to be positive, and celebrate the fact that I'm a single woman. If I like someone, I can say so, because there's no "boyfriend troubles" to tie me down anymore. I know that it's been "over" for months, but I think I've finally opened my eyes to the cold hard truth, and now I'm actually happy. It's about time I moved on, and I will.

4: Crap

I have a lot of shiz goin' on right now, and I don't know left from right.

So, today I went and hung out with my friend Kay, we went to Kollen Park, then to Steak and Shake, and we sat in the WalMart Parking Lot and ate our shakes, afterward we went and played with the baby toys in WalMart. I think that the workers almost threw us out xD.

Soon after I got home, I heard everything. My ex-boyfriend gave my ex-best-friend a promise ring, after dating only 1 month. I can't believe it, the person I'm freaking in love with wants to spend the rest of his life with the girl I hate the most. SHOOT ME NOW~! I can't stand the thought of them being together, it's disgusting, wrong, and it hurts, so much. There's nothing that can hurt worse...

...but something can happen to make me feel worse. My mom approached me today and said that I do nothing. She complained about everything, I didn't scrub the toilet, or the bathtub, when I did, and she just went off about the fact that I forgot to clean the counter today. Okay, so maybe I was in a rush to pick up Kay, but she didn't have to lecture me the way she did. She knows about the whole "promise-ring" crap too, doesn't she know that I'm already emotionally unstable? Why add on to my low self-esteem? It's like she wants me dead.

I do have some great friends to keep me around, like Azalea, Rose, Kay, Alexis, even my sister. No one else really seems to care...>.< Jeez, I still sound like an emo-kid! I need to get a boyfriend, maybe that'll make things a bit better.

3: Psycho (Warning: Emo Entry)

Is it normal to think the way I do? Is it normal to want revenge as bad as I do? Thoughts of suicide come up often these days, but I know I could never go through with it. I can't help but think about it, I'm not afraid of death, I'd embrace it with open arms. How crazy does that sound? A suicidal who won't do it. There are plenty of things I can do to replace suicide, like cut, or I could stop eating. If only it were that easy. I used to cut, I still have the scars, but it doesn't do anything for me like it used to, it won't take away my mental or emotional pain.

I know, I sound like a freaking emo-kid, but I need to let out my emotions somehow, if I don't I might do something bad...I've thought about murder as well, but yet again, I wouldn't be able to go through with it. I guess my emotions take over much too easily, either I want to kill myself, or someone else, neither would sound good to a school counselor, which my friend Alexis said I should talk to. The reason why I don't want to is because I'm afraid that if I do, they'd send me to a therapist...and I don't want to get involved in that crap.

All I want and need is someone to love me, need me, and want me, but I'm afraid that I lost the only person who did for good..

2: Ranting Time!

I started going through some of my old manga today. It was quite interesting reading the older volumes of Fruits Basket, and I have realized that since I read through the entire series, I think that the change in Natsuki Takaya's style is for the better, but when I talked to my best friend(who I shall call Rose), who only read the first 7 volumes, it makes me feel bad, because she thinks that the older style was better. I don't like disagreeing with her, and I really don't like it when we argue, but I can't help but stand where I am with this.

Natsuki's style has changed, yes, but it improved greatly, just like Kazuya Minekura, when she first started out with Saiyuki, her style wasn't great, but it improved greatly over time. Rose is a fan of the Saiyuki series, and she's read it up to the point where it is now, and she's always ranting about how much better the style is. Couldn't she just understand that Natsuki has improved just as Kazuya did? I mean sure, the styles are far from being similar, but it's the same, artists skills grow over time, and if Rose read the entire Fruits Basket series, she'd understand that Natsuki's style is better than it was before.

But like I said before, I really don't like to argue with her, because it makes me wonder how we could be friends, she's too opinionated, and she doesn't even like hearing someone elses opinion on things, unless she specifically asks for it. I can deal with it, but when we argue, I feel like my side isn't even heard. It happens often, and over really stupid things. Like when we talk about Twilight, it gets bad. Both of us enjoy the series, but we're not like the rabid fangirls that are frothing from the mouths everytime someone says something bad about it. She's and Edward fan, and I'm a Jacob fan...and that's the beginning of the problem.

To be honest, she and I are complete opposites. She likes vampires, I like werewolves. She's a cat person, I'm a dog person. She's a health nut, I don't give a shit what I eat. She likes the cold, I like the warmth. Etc, etc, etc...

But on the other hand, Rose and I are the best of friends, we tell eachother everything, and we stick up for eachother. She's the only real friend I have at school, I mean, I do have other people I get along with, but none that I completely trust.

1: Cleaning

Today was the first time in a very long time that I actually decided to clean my room. Normally, I'm just too lazy to bother, but I thought that if maybe I cleaned my room, my parents wouldn't have anything on me anymore. They don't know that it's clean yet, but just wait until they do, I might even get a smile from my mom! She never seems to smile for anything I do, no matter how hard I try to please her, at least my dad will say "Looks good" but he'll also say "It could be cleaner".

Also! My dad said yes for me going to Ikasucon(the anime convention that I've been attending these past 2 years), before he kept saying "No, I'm not going to pay for it." But he finally caved and said I could go. My friends said that they'd help pay for me, but my dad hates that, and will be giving me money(when he said he wouldn't)... -sigh-

I guess I'm loved?